Winter = Rainy season = ANNOYING!

raining raining~ ooh baby it's raining raining~ ella ella eh eh under my umberella~
Yo! it's Rihanna! the umbrella! lol..forgive me for saying such a lame thing..well u cant actually blame me..cause it's raining raining~ ooh baby it's raining raining XD It's been raining since winter started..luckily it's winter, or i swear rain + hotness = best way of committing suicide! unfortunately there are still some fellows out there suffering from the "suicide peak season" thing haha..it's really driving me nuts..seriously..once it starts raining, it's not gonna rain the whole day long..well it is but not the way of continuous raining..it rains for 10 mins then break for another 5..there comes another 30mins peeing and 10 mins drizzling..gees..the worst part..i broke my umbrella! it was a stormy afternoon and i was taking my way to bus stop under this beautiful rain..i didn't bother to open my umbrella but the downpour was getting heavier and heavier so..i took it out and i was supposed to open it..yea i did..but guess i was too pissed by the rain that i over push the umbrella and it was broken! damn..and i ended up showering under the rain.. =.=

there was one more..happened just few hours ago..i had my molecular bio lab at QE2, a hospital..doing something DNA extraction..trust me..it was boring..anyway before i walked into that building it was still sunny like sunshine never fades~ whatever i then busy working on the lab thing extracting DNA from chicken liver cell..lol~ guess what..whenever there's a lab, i always tend to be the last one to leave..so does joyce..since we're partners wuakaka.. i felt quite embarrassed cause i had to let my demonstrator (let's call him John..in fact..his name is john lol) wait for me to get my stuff done..what a shame..anyway he's a nice guy so i guess he wouldn't mind? XD "Yes! i'm done!" what a relief..and joyce n john n myself walking out tat building..what we saw was something totally distracting..it was raining! cats n dogs! damn..then i heard "What a nuisance..(giggle)"..john popped this out..LOL~he seriously got it right..it was a nuisance..then i got my ass out to the rain since i had to do so to get to the bus stop..damn it was so far away! i finally got there n gees..no roof? only a timetable stand?! and one thing..the bus just went away in front of me! wtf..so i had to wait for another 15 mins..gosh that was the longest 15 mins i've ever experienced.. luckily it wasn't raining so bad at the moment..AT THE MOMENT..i'm really strongly emphasizing this one..since the next second i had this thought, a car passed by and the water on the road nearly splashed all over me! damn! the next sec..GOD~i wonder if god was eavesdropping..it rained so heavy that i had to run to the opposite bus stop with a roof to shoo the rain away..anyway i would have to face the reality that my umbrella was broken..i still had to walk back to the bus stand eventually..under the rain! without an umbrella! gosh..i got on the bus in the end and thank god i arrived home safely! gotta get myself an umbrella sooner..i had really had enough rain today lol~enough is enough! wuakakaka..but it's hard to find an unbreakable and designed-to-be-carried-along and reasonably priced umbrella..so i guess the rain still gets to play with me for the next few days =.= FYI, it's gonna rain throughout this entire week..HELP~~

Battle of the Choirs

Battle of the Choirs, an Australian choir competition, which is currently aired on the Seven Network(it's an australian channel) every Sunday 7.30pm. Choirs from all over Australia compete against one another and now, it's down to 3 groups, which are VoxSynergy, Harambee, and University of Newcastle. These 3 groups are going to sing for their lives next Sunday on the Grand Final (no doubt it's gonna be one hell of a final hoho).

i wasn't really watching this show until just now, cause believe it or not, i always wanted to watch but damn..i always missed! i told myself i couldn't miss it anymore so after my dinner just now, i rushed to the living room, switching on the tv, sit back and get everything done right before the clock struck 7.30pm..i was so so so anticipated that i almost got suffocated..gees.."Oh! oh! oh! there we go! let the show begins!" Yay! couldn't wait any longer.. So as the show went on, the 4 semi finalists performed their own prepared song called "Top Tunes", followed by a Surprise medley which would be sung by all 4 of the choirs, judges would then deliberate and send one best-of-the-night group straight to the Grand Final, which was VoxSynergy! wuakaka..leaving the other 3 choirs singing their "Battle Tunes" to strive themselves a place in the grand final, with Harambee singing "Proud Mary", which was absolutely phenomenal, University of Newcastle singing "Cry Me a River"(yea the Justin's), which went great as well, and VoiceWorks singing "Bubbly", which i thought was kinda great too but Voiceworks got evicted.

Well, speaking of the 3, my personal favorite goes to...VoxSynergy! as you can tell.. gosh..they're just too fabulous to be described..though i didn't watch the previous episodes, i was just too intrigued by the clip showing a compilation of their previous performances..they once sang Sarah McLachlan's "Angel"..OH.MY.GOD! That performance was utterly fantastically awesome! The song was absolutely beautifully sung and damn! i was moved when i first heard them singing the song..even for the 2nd and the 3rd time i heard..i was still touched..and i'll always be touched by their rendition of "Angel"..they're awesome! (Sarah McLachlan's version is also sensational sure enough) about the VoxSynergy's version..there was a little technical problem like the judges said though..who cares! not even the judges care so much about it..cause it was truly a moving performance..nah~you guys won't get what i said..enjoy the clip and you will find out how not exaggerated i was..can't wait for the grand final~

VoxSynergy singing "Angel"..did i mention that the guy soloist has got a great voice? enjoy~

What to do?

It has been ages since I cried. I can still recall myself crying on the plane the day I left my friends and family to pursue my study oversea. That doesn't sound like something that I should cry for, I just couldn't control the tears from shedding and my body from trembling, or perhaps twitching, the harder I tried to inhibit it from occurring, my body just went the opposite way and turned out trembling even more terrible. PUFF. I cried, just like that, like my life was over. I was trying so damn hard to hide my emotion but I failed. That was a crying of reluctance of separation. After all the settling down here at Perth and things went pretty well as they seemed, I then realized that the world wasn't over so soon. Few months later, I cried again...

Just a few minutes before this post, I spilt my tears, it was merely a mild weeping though, this time, was a weeping of don't-know-what-to-do, my mind was in a total chaos,or call it dilemma, I felt so helpless, never felt worse since my 1st day here. Well, here's the reason..

It's gonna be the 2nd semester of my 1st year study, for sure, tuition fees should be paid before the term starts, which is 28 July. For some of you might know, my family is not wealthy at all, I should consider myself so lucky that I get to study here. FYI, It's not my mom who renders all the expenses and tuition fee, my aunt does. I know it's not a small amount for me to complete my study here, rising of Aussie dollars somewhat burdens my aunt and family more. So I understand that I shouldn't take all these for granted and I never did (but I've been a little out of control recently cause this holiday bores me so much that I keep spending money on unnecessary things). Until just now, I called my aunt for the 2nd semester tuition fee. I was struggling to call her cause it's always so uneasy to ask someone especially an elder for money, I spent almost a week to build up my mind and finally, I made my call (it was so tough, believe me, it was tougher than you could imagine).

My heart was beating so rapidly, adrenalin level rose so spontaneously, perspiration dripping all over my body, I was so near to suffocation. gosh!.. alright, that's a little off-limit haha. She picked up her phone, there I started my taking-me-one-week and not well prepared "speech". I thought that was all I needed to do and she's gonna pay all my fees until the day I graduate, that had made up my thoughts leastwise. I wasn't expecting any other questions from my aunt, at least not some out of the blue questions. She started asking me about the scholarship thing that I applied for before I came here, I told her that there still hasn't been any word about it yet. She then said something kinda harsh, maybe she didn't mean to be rough but her words just didn't come out right for me, she asked me why I would make my decision so hastily to study here before the scholarship thing's done, she said that I should wait for the scholarship to be adopted before I made up my mind to go anywhere else, and she said that how I could be going to study oversea without any confirmation of the scholarship thing. Frankly speaking, I was stunned by what my aunt just said, not blaming her for those words but perhaps I'm just too sensitive to perceive something so..sensitive. For the fact that she has her own children to take care of, I really couldn't charge her for saying something like that. She then asked me if it's possible to carry over my study at KL and back to Perth during my final year, which I'm very reluctant of. I would have done that if I wanted to do so for the first time. Not that I'm dissing those who study in KL, it's just personal. She told me that it would be nicer if I continue my following years in KL so that it won't be such a great burden on her since she still has two kids to worry about. She would still pay for the 2nd semester tuition fee though. I told her with fully unwillingness that I would try to contact my agent if she could help me with all these, tears were brimming at that second.

I was enjoying a show called "Whose line is it anyway?" at the moment with cookies in my mouth, still laughing my ass off before the call. Totally dazed after the conversation with my aunt, leaving myself with my cookies and the comedy on the screen, I felt lonely, scared, somehow petrified, as I said, helpless, cause I don't want to pack my bags to KL next year! But it's the reality that leaves me no choice, AAHHH! I was in so a contradiction. I hate this feeling, and right after she hung up, I cried. Staring at my laptop screen showing the everyone-laughing-scene, I couldn't even fake a smile. A part of me was thinking to accept the reality but another part of me was strongly opposing that idea. After the crying-out-not-so-loud, I tried to calm myself and here I am, typing all these, phew~feeling much better now, maybe crying helped nothing but at least, letting out my emotion making me feel so much easier. I realize that I should really do something other than plain crying like a baby, just that I don't like to deal with such situation, it makes me hate myself for being so useless that I can't even help with these things, the only thing I'm capable of is to do my best in this 2nd semester, and spend money wisely and carefully. I'm so much comforted after typing my thoughts out, gonna call my mom for a little discussion tomorrow. Hope I can sleep my night out peacefully later, don't mess me up, nightmare!

P.S. I really want to stay! ='(

气到炸 + 闷到爆

也没那么气啦 不过闷到爆是完全没有夸张的成分 闷死我啦!

气 气什么咧? 还不是看完星光3败部复活赛 把自己气到血脉喷张 七孔流血 体无完肤 面目全非 =.= 总之就是气!

为何把自己搞得那么气? 反正都与我无关..

理论上是这样没错 但身为星光忠实观众 眼看着星光从第一届单纯的比赛 到现在第三届乱七八糟的 真是闻者流泪啊~（流个屁泪啊XD）

所谓的乱七八糟 不是参赛者 我个人觉得是评审的问题 第一届时评审都用超严格的标准看待选手 到了第三届 可能评审们是中了邪 嗑错药 评分都乱乱来的 尤其是众所瞩目的踢馆赛 吼~很明显地评审为了要保住某些选手而给分都失去了常规..

就拿徐佳莹来说好了 她的创作是没话说 但她那次在踢馆赛碰到对手女高音洪子涵时的表现（有一个故事）明显比她上周的表现（圆舞曲）来的逊 而评审为了把徐保住就给她比上周（20分）还高的分数（21分） 就为了徐不被对手击败而给到与对手相同的分数 这哪门子的道理啊?! 我是满喜欢徐的啦 但比赛就是为求公正嘛 这什么东东啊..

就像这次的败部复活赛（一个让已被淘汰的选手能重返星光舞台的环节 第一届根本就没有这种多余的东西 到了第二届节目为了把某些不慎被淘汰的高材生挽救回来而设了这样的一个环节） 一个实力超强的踢馆者孙碧娜（韩国人）演唱顺子的“回家” 有耳朵都听得出来是一段20分以上的演唱 而她却只获得了19分 反观之前已被淘汰的选手赖圣恩 只凭着自编舞蹈就获得18分 评审也有说赖的歌唱是跟不上舞蹈的 难道就为了决赛有个能跳舞的就把赖救回来吗? 那岂不是对其他的选手不公吗?! 什么态度..

徐佳莹自创曲“圆舞曲”（20分）


徐佳莹自创曲“有一个故事”（21分）


孙碧娜“回家”（19分）


赖圣恩“竹林深处/第五街的诱惑组曲”（18分）


过去让他过去 来不及 从头喜欢你 白云缠绕着蓝天 啊~..........（林晓培-心动 这首歌突然浮现在脑海中XD）

说到都气 算了啦 反正第一届最棒就对了~XD 林宥嘉赞啦~

说完气到爆 是时候谈谈闷到爆了XD
怎么个闷法呢?
工作还没找着..不知何时才能找到.. 电脑又有问题..软体硬体 问题通通都来凑热闹..=.=网路也在日渐减速当中..
S.O.S!!

P/S: 为什么人类要生智慧齿? 痛死了!