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Will I stay or will I go?

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

I don't know..I don't know how long i can take this..it's gonna burst out of nowhere..but I don't want to..I really don't want to...
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Well here's another thing, not the crazy grumble above, totally not related, so please, don't senka senka imagine everything thanks =p It's about my future, again. Was chatting with my mum through MSN few days ago, as I expected, the "will i stay or will i go" thing was brought up, which I try so hard to stave off. yea, i'm too a coward to face reality. She then mentioned something about IMU, which is a great medical school in Malaysia. She found out (actually my aunt who pays all my fees did) that IMU actually offers Biomedical Science degree (yup the thing i'm doing) but it's a brand new course, will be commencing next year or something. Gees! of course i don't want to study in KL (no offense to people studying in KL), nothing much, just that i simply don't like KL, that's it.

Well we had a pretty serious talk (which is so not my style lol) about my future. I told her the thing that I might want to pursue my master degree after i graduate this Biomed thing, get a PR and get a job something, and then we carried on with another half an hour crap of, again, stuff about my future, kept telling me to be serious and be independent, who doesn't know! i mean, it's not easy to just step up like that, and the thing is, it feels kinda weird that i'm becoming an adult, dealing with my own stuff, starting to worry about life, so and so..sooner or later i'm gonna deal with all these cruel inhumane unethical life-sucking-problems, i know..yea, i know..and i will.. anyway, we then chatted about the utterly sucky economy nowadays and inevitably MONEY was dragged into our conversation. yea economy is deteriorating like it never had before, which sucks.

I got this surge of courage at that particular moment and i told my mum that "I don't want to go to KL" and there it was, she told me that she doesn't want me to go also, considering career opportunities and other fucking matters. Well honestly i was god-damningly glad at the moment hearing this sort of thing, but life doesn't always go the way you want it to, she then mentioned the fact that economy sucks and it's not easy for her to ask any more money from my aunt (though i'll pay her back when i work but...). My mum then "cited" the best quote of all time, "do the best, expect the worst" and if it really doesn't work, i'll really have to go to IMU or other institutions next year. In the end, we had an agreement, she gave me 2 weeks time to gather all the information i could about the PR thing and details about the course and my plan, to "support" the point that i'm staying so to facilitate my PR application in the future when she "debates" with my aunt. Lol! that sounds serious but it's not lol..my mum said she'll talk to my aunt that i'm staying for XXX reason and is for the best blah blah. So, yea..the biggest homework ever..

It's been few days and i've been doing research, little research. Nothing much, browsing through IMU website, squandering time, typical me lol, will continue this research thing, it's tough but i'ma pull this through! I seriously am. All the best to myself! I really really really hope that i cn stay, i know it's really expensive studying here but i'm gonna work harder in the future to pay back whatever debts (if there is any). I wanna stay..

13 comments:

LoLo said...

hey,bacteria here. Long time didn't visited your blog. When i saw the title, i know what is happened again. HaizZz.. is kinda a problem hard to solve. mind i give some opinion? I'm nor saying KL or Aus not good la.. just say something here. HAHA! Since you want to stay Aus but your aunt can't afford,why don you find a part time job there to pay yourself expenses at there? i think it is a good way,right? And, actually not dangerous or not good as you think de.. b4 that I also think that KL is bla bla bla de.. Don't worry. HAHA! Sure, i hope you can stay there to finish your study la.. What can I do is support and pray for you~ be tough ya.. =D mosquito~

Watson said...

Hey yo...

Actually I'm expecting your email, but when i saw this, i knew exactly why i haven't received any.

Life been disappointed eh? and tired, and sad... But what to do.. Can't escape from it too... Put it aside at this moment, next year the same thing again...

But seeing you finally take up all your own responsibility, i felt that maybe its time to test yourself.

Drop of our nation's economy, raise of Australia's currency. This sure will affect the world, especially for Malaysians who study at Australia...

Do try your best, ok?

Here are some suggestions:
maybe you can go and take part time job. I know you were searching for it for the last term break, but, now its different, you need the money. So however cheap the salary is, i think you should give it a try. Its the job picks you, not you pick the job...(no offense)

Next, save your money...


Wish you good luck in searching the PR data.

Crazygtown31 said...

seriously dude, ur aunt must have stumble on some kind of fortune if she is paying for ur fees in australia. dun b mad. it's just that u have to ask urself: "does she have the obligation to do dat?". is she closely-related to you? it must be hard for herif she has to sponsor her own children as well.

u must understand the economy in malaysia is not so good now u know. the price for everything has rise like skyrocket. maybe how much money she plan to allocate for your studies last year may be too much for her to handle this year. cheer up!

if my dad cnt afford my studies, i might also have to choose other courses u know. so i was thinking of studying interior design in case i dun have enough budget or the uni i wan dun accept me. that's life. i can't do anything if things are out of my hands. i have to think of the hardship my dad have to go through if i wan to study abroad. it's not about his obligation to sponsor my tertiary education. it's more about is it necessary for him to do so.

i would agree with lolo. u have to start working part time if things can't go smoothly as you plan. good luck^^

yog said...

hey guys..thank u so much for the advice..i'm looking for a part time job as well..in fact..i'm applying for one..at McD as weekend crew..hope they're gonna accept me haha..

about the currency thing..well actually aussie dollar is dropping as well..even worse than RM..the rate now is like AUD1 = RM2.7..it used to be like RM 2.9 or 3 sth..but still..it's really expensive if we convert it from RM or HKD or whatever..

well jiaming, yup, we're closely related, and my mum told me that my aunt promised my dad to take care of us when my dad passed away..but i understand too the pressure of affording such large amount of money..not easy..well since i really want to stay i'm gonna take part time job..not a choice anymore lol..

wetson, nah this is not the reason i haven't replied ur email..cos i had test few days ago and afterwards i've been so mesmerized in those dramas and movies i got from my friend..XDD anyway dude..last time i told myself to spend money wisely and i have! up till now the money i've spent is like much much more reduced comparing to the amount i spent when i just came..good thing hey..XD

lololo..haha i know KL is not dangerous as i thought..wc and i had a chat that day..she told me that already..hahaha..anyway yea! pray for me..lol..i really hope that i can stay..so i gotta do what i'm supposed to do..(uinah..sounds so responsible..XD)

thanks again for supporting me..thank u guys..thank u so much...

LoLo said...

ahahaha..so great to feel that you r out of sadness. hehe.. wow.. work in MCD is good! can see n smell better than cant eat it. hahaha.. kidding la.. ya lo.. AUS dollar is getting lower. ENG dollar oso oo.. actually wat happen aa? cz i less read newspaper de.. hehehe.. sure,i will pray 4 u..

yog said...

cos of those stupid economy issues..no idea also haha..i'm not a fan of newspaper either..lol..but i think it has sth to do with the petrol stuff..and USA..whatever..better return everything to sistem Barter..original is still the best! lol..

H@r@ld said...

y is tat ur aunt so reluctant 2 hlp u arr..seriously..v all understand tat 说到钱什么情都假...bt she is rich la..how can she b so stingy..i oso dono wat 2 say liao la..my dad oso complain tat his business is nt as gd as prvious time...dono he can raise enuf money 4 both me n my bro or nt..hope he does..haiz

Unknown said...

pal, tis is hw REALITY look like.
if ur aunt cant help u anymore, help urself.
求人不如求己。
all d best to u for d part-time thingy.

well, since nw v hv all grown up, mayb it is good for u to learn hw to see thing from different perspective.
tat will @ least reduce some pressure.
有时做人需要自欺,酱生活才会比较好过。
+U!

yog said...

harald:
lol..not that she's reluctant or stingy sth..she has her own children as well so i don't really expect too much..but deep down in my heart i really hope that she can hahahaha.. anyway dude..everything is going down nowadays..so lets fight for the future together! lol..

renge:
actually i once thought of lodging for student loan or sth..like those aussie students..i have this aussie fren..she's chinese but she was born here..and that day i asked her how much her tuition fee is..she then told me that she wasn't so sure about the tuition fee thing cos she has signed a contract sth with the uni and once she graduates and finds herself a job she'll clear the debts..so her parents won't pay anything for the tuition fee..i think most of those locals do so as well..hmm..but since i'm international..dont really know where to loan..lol..

Unknown said...

I think u should find a way to ask ur fren.
"Ask" seem to b a muz learn lesson for us edy.
^^
+U! do d best! & expect d best! XD

Rachel said...

Dude!it's me=)sori din drop by ur blog for a rili long tym cz lots of stuffs to get busy with lately^^my skul will be having a sports meet haha..tat's why..We have to make poms poms and stuffs lyk tat..man! i miss TSHUNG TSIN!..I'm in yellow house btw hehe^^..Bac to the topic..dude..chill k?..Dun wori too much k dude..ther must be a way out=)what you can do now is try to save money to reduce ur cost of living thr=)do well in ur exam..who knoes u can get a scholarship by ur excellent results?!!!!=)right?..i have faith in you dude^^dont worry..try ur veri best in ur studies=)that's what you can do!..no matter what ur aunt and ur mum decide..no matter where u're studying in..it still wont stop u from being a succesfull person in the future^^!..i'll be supporting u always and be ur good listener dude^^Honestly i wan you to study in KL!^^hehe cz i can meet u always when i go bac and study in PEnang dude! just like old times nyahahaha!! *smirks^^*

Anonymous said...

hello, its kowa.
suprise eh?when u c this comment?HAHAHA....dunno why, unconciously just click on ur blog on other ppl's blog..=)
hmm, u really need to be tough,its not easy to stay in oversea though,need to deal with money matter, tuiton fees matter, part time allthose kind of stuff. but cheer up,u have a gang friends supporting you all the time.let me tell u , my situation similar to u, its my uncle financially supproting me.i now wht kind of situation u r facing, my mom told me what ur mom told u. at the end we still have to deal with reality eh?The currency its high in there,tuition fees for international sttdent is damn high, in Nz a slightly better only when deal with currency.
ur aunt has her own pressure though,what you might need to do is get ready for another hardtime coming.ur determination can win!
really hope u can overcome the stress , talk it out to ur close fren,easy to be depress if u accumulate ur stress.The thing i learn here.really. pray 4 u n take care.

oh ya, some idea 4 u ,
a fren told me abt DOMINO PIZZA ,she said the manager is Asian somehow,higher chance to get part time. =)she get one too
try find out if there is twinning for biomed in Imu.=)

yog said...

Hey kowa! can't believe i just saw your comment left nearly a month ago :S well i'm actually kinda surprised that we're on the same boat! (well not exactly the same but..maybe neighboring boats? lol) yea pull this through together and we will stand strong till the end! woohoo~ yes i'm so blessed to have friends to talk the problems with.. i really appreciate that and thank you for noticing haha..

btw as you can tell from my latest entry, all the previous anxiety and worry has finally paid off! haha..i'm so glad..

well all the best to your studies and will see you in kk ;)