Separation

Well, I don't know why, I suddenly had the impetuosity to write down sth about my friends, perhaps the day of separation is coming soon I guess..

Since the graduation day, well before that day, when I thought that we were about to separate from each other soon, I felt grieved, it was sth like swallowing a whole piece of lemon n drinking a huge jug of pure lemonade, it just felt so sour and..*sigh*

Ya, I admit that I was mad at our class sometimes due to their incoorperative, their attitudes etc..I really wanted to stand up and yell at them:"Shut the FUCK up!!" when they were making immense noise which drove me crazy..

I didn't..

I wasn't daring enough to do so, ya, also, I couldn't let myself do that..Since they're all my friends, though this sounds weird haha, It's also part of my disposition that I would never do sth that couldn't let me get down from the stage, er, meaning that I wouldn't do sth that embarrass myself, and get no way for me to hide my embarrassment, like standing up in the class n scolding at them.. Since this really makes me feel shy or whatever blushing thing.. I don't know.. it's a bad thing.. for me.. being such a COWARD..no offence

Well, that's not the point haha. Back to the separation thing..

*SIGHHH* Feel really bad.. thinking of separation.. the first to go is Chris, just few more weeks then he'll be going to Canada, we'll not meet until 2 yeras later when Chris's coming back, heartbreaking huh.. Next up is Eric I think, Kanasai of our class, he'll go to Taiwan so I guess he'll disappear soon from KK.. sad sad sad..

There was a weird one, on the graduation day, some of us thought that we would cry and let tears flooding the hall, yet there was no one except WeiCing was crying.. perhaps, we're still meeting each other now in school cause of the SPM thing.. I guess that's why..

Thinking of going to Perth next year, probably by myself, or accompany of someone else, Ee Chuen? Chu Chee? Since I heard that they wanna go to Perth also.. *SIGH* another tears-causer event.. I'm gonna leave my friends here and make new friends there, it's quite tough for me as I'm resistant to strangers..it's really difficult for me to have buddies like now..it's also not an easy stuff for me to acclimatize to the ambience there, aw.. making me to have a wish to stay here with my friends, I prefer this actually haha..

Really can't imagine how my life will be at Perth, washing face with tears? missing my buddies all-day-long? Being in a trance thinking of fond memories? *BIG Sigh* I really don't know..
It's indeed a sorrowful thing, when typing all these, my heart is bleeding profusely(nice joke! =.='') It hurts my innocent pure lil heart(oh pls..) but it's true, though it's a lil exaggerated.

My brain is empty, don't know what to write, speechless? I guess so.. *sigh* hope that I can overcome this asap..

But anyway, love you guys, S3Zhong..