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Friday, September 18, 2009

vulnerability is what i'm feeding on atm.

lately, i feel SO depressed like all of a sudden.for some reason. sitting in my room. facebooking. doing nothing. PAMM. depressed..

wonder if i've contracted some sort of neurologic diseases.. schizophrenia perhaps. beware of ME.
probably that's why my hands have been shaking like popcorn machine for the past 19 years. i have yet-to-surface awesome disease. an awesome one.

rant rant rant..

what's the purpose of living anyway.. not that i'm having thoughts of committing suicide. just wondering. well of course other than to serve God.what else? i'm lost..

:)

cor blimey! english accent's hot ;) so bloody scorching HOT. random much huh. ...

friends come and go. they do. do they? well not for me but.it seems like that to me.. like one day all my friends are gonna leave me. i'ma die alone. on my tombstone " lonely old man with no friends who died in a car accident while roller-blading"

so many thoughts running through my head right now. random thoughts. not so random thoughts. some serious thoughts. i'm never a serious person am i.. how pathetic hah..

future. what about future? to be a doctor? a janitor? to get married? or not?
near future. what about it? still slacking like the filthy rich's kid?

i know i'm awesome..

maybe not so.........

it's just one of those moments where you feel like everyone in the world hates you. i still love myself though. no matter what :) *narcissism to its finest*

going to A.S.I.A Cocktail tonight. one of the most well-known annual fob events. it's gonna be packed to the rafters.seriously.2000+ ppl? drunk-dancing on the dancefloor? don't think so..

prolly it's just me. i want my friends to care about me like i care about them. even on some teeny trivial inconspicuous matters. i want them to SHOW me that they care. call me a sensitive emotional douchebag. whatever.

oh. i've been doing this one thing since i can remember. i'm a people-pleaser :) have i ever said no to any favor? people-pleaser i am. a pp who never expresses his stupid struggling self, who always presents himself as a happy-go-lucky TLN. feel sad? bury the sadness.keep it down as much as possible and put on a typical hypocritical grin. .... thought it was a good thing though hah..

emo much? :) feel so much better. just wanted to find some way to 'share' my feelings.at the same time thought i should really update this crappy blog a little. though no one's reading anyway hah..

that's all for now. don't forget, i'm awesome.

8 comments:

Jenny said...

i know exactly what you mean cos i've been feeling kinda like that too lately... lol.

but really, there's no reason why you should be depressed.. like, you're smart (i think lol) and funny sometimes.. :p

i guess friends sometimes come and go... but i like to think that at least the 'true' ones will stay forever.. lol. you should stop complaining (lol).. i'm sure you've got some! (not like me who's got none, lol)

ooh... ASIA cocktail!! you must be enjoying it right now! :)

Watson said...

so you are really having those american-teens lifestyle? those drunk dancing boops on the dance floor? wahhahahaha

well, not sure i got showed my care towards you or not, but i think i did. :P

just get over it, i know you will :)

yog said...

lalalaa thanks guys it was just some random rant. nothing big:) anyway still..thanks for still reading my blog LOL. don't think it'll be updated like anytime soon :p

LoLo said...

haha.. yog, dono what to say la.. u suddenly will say urself awesome or hot.. zZz.. haha.. life means what?? this question come in my mind yesterday too.. anyway, how was the ASIAN cocktail party? i heard it from harald too.. it sound fun man...

yog said...

random questions always come across my mind. cos i'm random.. HAHA:) anyway yea the party was alright.didn't enjoy much though. went there for not more than 3 hours and left. when you come we can go:) lol

E!aine said...

HAHAHAHA... it doesn't sound like u man.. u finally have the moment of being depressed.. surprise surprise!!! used to it. it's juz a feeling, it won't conquer u at all =) oii... people-pleaser, write it down in ur resume.. rare talent!!

yog said...

oh please it totally sounded like me :p yea i know.'twas just one of those moments when you have nothing else better to do but being emo. totally get it.. and english accent's HOT. LOL

E!aine said...

english accent? haha.. I can't wait to try american accent =) Hope I really get it!!!