I'm back!

WuHa! WuHa! i'm back! i'm so back! as in back back..back from aussie..back to blogging..I'M BACK! :p

its been a while since i last updated..like..few weeks? anyways, no interesting sutff = no update! that's my blogging theory..LOL.. well guess i'll have to do a little update to this blog..it's all god-forsakenly dusty dirty dilly-dally.... vegetable is good for your health! hoho..

let's talk about the day i came back to kk from alaska (don't ask me why alaska..lol) it was 6/12 Saturday..i started packing the day before..and ended up only like 1 gram of stuff inside the luggage..you know..procrastinating has always been one of my best friends.. i'm not only good in procrastinating during pre-exam study, i'm pro in dilly-dallying in basically everything.. I rock..i know.. so i left the packing after a good night sleep.. it was my last night in perth so guess what, i had the best sleep ever! the next morning, i woke up with the cock crowing..yes i reared a cock named "dick face" in my room..back in perth.. i then enjoyed my last brekkie at perth..which was cereal + milk..typical uni student's breakfast..the express one.. then i began jumping around in the house (my homestay family was off to hk the day before i left so i got to do whatever i wanted to do since day one i moved in to their house) screeching dancing moonwalking.. walking in the house like totally naked..called a bunch of hookers and fucked the morning out..had a morning orgy and got all wasted with boobies and pennies.. OH MY.. did i just say all that? must have got possessed by Harald Tan..LOL..

i then carried on packing while grace wong (the one who abandoned us back in S2 and flew all the way back to miri..yes..that woman..lol) came and visited me..well bid me goodbye..sort of..cos she didn't want to go all the way to the airport konon..anyway thanks to her "visit" i had the shortest packing time ever..cos she kept grumbling and mumbling about how indecisive i was..indeed.. anyways after finished packing grace gave me a ride to the shopping mall nearby-est, Garden City to get some souvenirs for my grandma.. as well to reminisce the shopping mall i've spent the most money on..damn it..lol.. i was then catching a bus home (5 mins ride, told ya the nearby-est) when i met a girl from Harbin..apparently she spoke english..sort of like aussie accent..and she came to me and started talking with me like i knew her..(oh Lord, forgive me for my handsomeness and attractiveness..) and she kept on blahh-ing on my way back home..like all the way..the thing is.. she started with "did you just visit the place i worked? i think i saw you in my shop just now" "oh reeally? where do you work?" "xxxx(some random shop which i have no idea what that was..)" "ohh..(pretending to know that shop) i think you get the wrong person *smile*" i thought she'd cease the conversation after that..who knew she'd continue interrogating me over some craps..i then pretended to be my hypocrite, smiling, answering questions then i got off the bus with a totally charming "nice meeting you" smile on my face..i'm a rock star..

well, after that i was waiting for the cab to arrive..getting a little nervous yet feeling a sense of reluctance to leave that great place..(perth is really a great place) but i felt like going home so badly that i couldn't wait any longer..the contradiction went on and on until the taxi finally arrived..the driver was an indonesian.. while i was on my way to airport mr.harald called me like..thousand times cos he'd been waiting since 4pm..thanks to his homestay family lol cos the flight took off at 7.20pm..wonder what his homestay family was thinking.. finally after a not-so-long-not-so-short sweaty hotty 41-dollar ride (damn that was so ex..) carrying one backpacking, one laptop, one little handcarry luggage and one huge to be "cabinned", there i saw harald sitting on a bench waiting for my arrival.. he actually tried to check in with his 22.4kg luggage but he was like totally rejected by that spec-lady..know what caused the overweight? he brought two 1.25L bottled drinks back! oh god..he then took it out for good and drank it to contract diabetes..as he always wishes hoho.. then it was my turn..well our turn since he got turned down the 1st time..his luggage got through with 19kg..then i was a little nerve-racking with my 21.6kg unreasonably large packing and was ready to repack that shit..surprisingly, she let me through! HA! this so proved that my charm does kill..lol..

we then Domed for like a while since it was just 5pm sth..enjoyed the last Dome we'd have in perth, we then walked into the waiting room thing to wait for the flight.. there emerged the crisis..lol crisis..whatever.. there was this guy standing at the so-called checkpoint thing making sure there's no one bringing handcarry more than 7kg.. and good die not die..i had one backpack, one laptop bag and one little handcarry as i mentioned before..which was so not allowed..that guy then told me this and that and told me to get an approval sticker or sth..at least that was what i heard..i then went all the way back to the counter downstairs totally naked.. *evil smirk* asked the lady for a sticker or something.. and the following thing again proved that i'm such a charming attractive handsome hottie..LOL..that lady welcomed me with a big big ahliau's smile on her face and asked me what my problem was, i then told her i was required a sticker or sth..she did a little checking and asking whatsoever, still, with a you're-so-hot-smile on her face.. she asked me to stuff as much stuff as possible from that little handcarry to my backpack so that i could pass that idiotic checkpoint with only 1 backpack and one laptop bag..she sent my little handcarry "cabinned" which actually was not allowed..remember my 21.6kg elephant? yea that was actually already over the limit and she still let through my little handcarry luggage which was like 5kg++..she then gave me this everything's-fine-now smile and i got myself through that checkpoint..gees..what a crisis..LOL..yea crisis...

we boarded the plane and got excited..watched a movie called "Fred Claus", which was not really bad..oh! it was a small plane we sat on..it was like a 3-3 arrangement of seats..totally small..which shouldn't really be an airplane from aus to brunei..it should be at least a 2-4-2! agghhh..anyways everything was going smoothly..arrived at brunei..felt the freaking HOTNESS..started sweating..and boarded the plane to kk..arrived at kk..picked up luggage..met my mum and sis outside waiting..feeling so warm getting home finally..and for the first time since february, i felt so homy at home.. taadddaahhh! here i am! i'm back! lalalalaa~ about that little reunion we had at lintas yoyo..it felt pretty great meeting long time no see zhongers.. unfortunately not all were able to be there.. but i'm so looking forward to the humungous reunion we're gonna have in 10 years' time..bringing along our own spouse and kids.. awwww.. just can't wait xD

one thing about KK that i can't stand..the freaking HOT HOT HOT climate..it's killing me! lol..and one more thing..all dear tolol fan chong.. wish they could all get drowned by ah liau's saliva.. yogurt rocks! hohoho..

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saw this thingy from Wet's blog..surprisingly the result was so accurate that i almost wet..LOL (there's a story behind the "i almost wet" thing..funny thing haha) i'm so gonna stick to my own way..prolly i'ma win myself a title of "blogger of the century" with all these rationality and sentimentality i've got..i'm awesome..and yes i'm bragging about my blog, a blog with only not more than 5 posts a month..LOL..

the night before..

This is the COCKY me underestimating the 100-MCQ coming tmr...

This is the GULLIBLE me falling into the molecular-biology-of-the-cell hoax, with incomplete lecture recordings, lecture slides with only pictures and nearly no explanation at all..

it's 1:15am and i'm supposed to make out with my bed at this moment.. but due to some factors, yes..my cockiness lol, i'm trapped! totally trapped like a fool. FOOL fool FOOL fool~ lalalala~ yes i'm a fool, i'm a COCKY fool! :p just wanted to express how glad i am that i'm always not the only one being so cocky. we have this discussion board for every unit we're enrolled in.. it's normally empty and dusty until the day before exam, typical.. all of a sudden the board is thronged and jammed and noisy and squeezy.. and for sure there's some professional last-minuter like myself (but i'm not being a last-minuter this time! lol) jamming the board asking for help. i understand how it feels when your desperate with something and you can't get it, you'd resort to do something you never did before.. like.. calling 911, commit homicide, or maybe suicide, kissing the lamp post, ... , xD and last but not least, spamming on discussion board! lol.. and for someone who's being cocky all the time and feeling devastated at this 11th hour, yes i'm referring to yogurt yong.. it's always good to find someone that happens to be on the same boat! how glorious would that be. GLORIOUS~ anyway, i saw lots of ppl ranting about how shouldn't the lecture be and so and so blah blah blah.. sure i'm so glad to see that i'm not alone! therefore i decided to spare this very last minute to express how glad i am cos i'm not alone~ i'm not alone~ lalala~

gotta turn in..wish me luck..100 MCQ! hope i'll have a dream about the answers for all the questions tmr.. all the best..

Ohhh Freedom! Freeeeeddoomm

Ohhh Freedom~ Freedom~ Freeeeedoom~ Think! (yea that song..lol..)

I'm unofficially free! yea, unofficially.. cos i'm only free for one night (i gave myself this one-night-in-freedom pass, the coolest pass ever!) and have to work my ass out starting tomorrow for the 100-MCQ molecular biology on Sat.. sadness :p

anyway, since i granted myself a night free, i think i'd do something meaningful. YES! clean up the dust herein.. well lets start off with "how's my week been"! as you know it's been a while since exam week commenced, and i, as a fellow Human Biology 2 taker had my very first exam during Swat Voc (the week before actual exam for you to get prepared, they call it that, weird..lol) it was only a practical though, nothing much to worry about since it was fairly easy last semester, and i totally aced it! i got 97% for the practical last semester for human bio 1..yes, round applause please, thank you. and FYI 97% was the highest mark. there were only few of us scoring this ultimate mark. YES, big round applause. thank you very much :p So for the one this semester, i think i screwed it up a little, by a little i literally mean A LITTLE since i'm a cocky guy, i will always overestimate myself..cos i'm COCKY! haha. punch me in my face if your annoyed.. ha! you can't! nani nani bubi nani nani bubi you can't catch me! xp

enough with the stupid childish thing lol.. oh one thing! one embarrassing thing. It was a mary-go-round pattern exam, so basically your given 2.5 minutes for one station, times up, move to the next station, 2.5 mins, times up, move.... until you finish all the questions (sounds exciting hey! yes it definitely was the exam with greatest fun lol) then during one 'move', it was a 180 total turn, i had to move to the station behind me (oh ya the prac is on a threesome basis, 3 students a station a time) and i was a little nervous cos i couldn't really get the answer for the previous station so i moved to the next station promptly thinking the previous question, then i looked at the question in front of me when i moved to the next station, it was Q3 where i was supposed to have Q6! what the hell! i was like totally freaked out and started biting my nails, looking worried, eyes shifting left and right and left, perspiring profusely, wetting my pants, burning my brain down...yes i was a little LOST at that moment..but it took less than 0.01sec for me to recover, lol, guess what, i sat on the wrong seat! i was supposed to be the third seat all the way to the end and at that particular making-ppl-nerve-racking station i sat on the 1st seat! omg! the girl was waiting for me to fudge off and we had this awkward little grin when we faced and i left the seat so clumsily that i kissed Jennifer Hawkins.. believe it or not, the whole process elapsed a total of....3 seconds! lol yes this whole paragraph happened in 3 secs. xD lalalalala~

after the prac on 06/11 i started studying sambil slacking for the crazily bombarding exams coming this week, which i actually did quite a good job on. (slacking i'm referring to hahahaa) i started doing revision on 100-MCQ on last Sat, which was so not yogurt yong, the guy who always does his stuff at the eleventh hour. lol. anyway, yea studying slacking and studying, and finally it was this monday, 10/11, only i started revising Chem which the exam was yesterday. my plan was like "okay i'll study chem on monday and do human bio on tuesday, fair enough" cos after chem which was yesterday i'd have like less than one day to study for human bio hence my plan. yes, "plan"..if i ever do things according to my plan, i'm possessed. LOL as usual i used up my entire body to study my heart out on monday, like the nerdest nerd you can ever imgaine of me, well, in the morning only though, i started watching dramas and facebooking and that summed up my night, which i was supposed to finish chem and i still had like 2 topics and past exam papers to go! omg! well i then told myself not to torture my body and i went to bed so peacefully that i had the weirdest dream i've ever had! not sure if i had that dream that night or the night before, anyway it was a funny dream haha.. totally unorganized and mussy fussy..

sorry bout that lol, i'll try to stick to the status quo! oohh stick to the status quo! HMS! lol.. then yup, as USUAL, i woke up on tuesday morning, glamorous sunshine shone magnificently through the window straight onto my good-lookingest face, procrastinated a little, breakfasting, enjoying the time of my life (lol) and finally the chem notes grasped my attention, the chem notes were like "bastard! you promised last night to study me!"...something like that..anyway, and i sat down, GUESS, WHAT,.. it was youtube time! lol..another half day gone, i only started studying for chem after that and @!$^!%@%^#%&^%!@^!^#^&Y (no, not swear words, that, my friend, is called "fast-forward", mark it down) then i sat the exam with whole lot of excitement and hope, and i came out of the hall looking desperately wanting to have some day off! lol. that was one hell of a controller btw, fast forawrded almost a day..HAHA! *slapped punched kicked stomped bitten eaten swollen* please bear with my randomness, i've been this random lately :p oh well. i had my human bio exam this afternoon, which was alright, i did a pretty mediocre job i guess, well, above average..maybe distinction..I'm a COCKY bad ass dude! *enough is enough!!* lol.. and here i am! doing meaningful stuff instead of preparing my funeral for the stats exam on next monday, make sure you make youselves available at that time, or i'll pester you with my never-dying-spirit. meow~ *i'm random~i'm random~*

actually this isn't what i wanted to post at first, and i ended up crapping so much, feeling so..LUCKY for you guys to have the chance to witness this great production of mine! your pleasure x-] oh ya the main point haha, finally, it's about aussie students..you know some of them, SOME, don't "pigeon-holing" yourself lol. yup SOME of them are like "i need to score only 30% in the exam to pass the unit! woohoo!" ...=.=... cos most of the exams here don't account like 70 or 80% to the unit final mark, most of them are like 50, max 65 or so.. and those aussies' attitudes.. i mean.. shoulnd't you be aiming for, say, at least a Credit or Distinction? PASS?! what the hell?! i even heard my friend from other uni say that her friends didn't even turn up for the exams cos it's only worth 30% of the total mark. WTF?! should this be the right attitude for studying? 中国文化历史悠久 孔子曰：“长江后浪推前浪， 前浪死在沙滩上” what a brilliant improvisation. i'm awesome. yup that's pretty much what i want to say.. step up fellas! credit! D! HD! not pass! lol.. i'm not that pissed actually, just thought that i might utilize this lame topic to rant for soemthing haha.

yay! long post! its been a while since i posted a long post. wooweee~ *kena tumbuk even harsher* better off to study now, yes, STUDY! which literally means..Grey's anatomy time! lol.. all the best guys ;)

ah, ha, ha, ha, Stayin' alive! Stayin' alive!

i'm staying alive!

yes.. i'm staying alive! i'm doing some revision right now but just received a call from my mom.. i thought it was gonna be some sort of ranting or what so i answered the call expecting NOTHING.. she then asked me what was i doing how's study going sort of stuff.. then.. she said,

"I have a good news for you, your aunt just called (yes the aunt paying all my fees), and she said if you do great in this semester she'll let you proceed your study in aussie!"......

I was STUNNED.. totally.. staying surprised for a few sec and that Joker's face started coming to me and sticked on my face.. I tried to sound calmed.. at the same time i burst out laughing in my mind.. woohohoho~ then my mom told me that she told my aunt about the aussie dollars dropping thing and me getting PR thing and my aunt agreed and.........I can stay if i get good results for this semester!

Ole Ole Ole Ole~~ i'm so on cloud nine right now!! walking on air to the seventh heaven!! yiiihaaaaaaaaaaa~~ it all just boost my mood to study harder but before that i'd have to express my extreme happiness at this particular moment!! Wuuuhaaaa~~ (and i just checked my grade for the last Chem lab i had, again, i got a HD! that's so wonderful)

All these just sum up my mood right now.. mary had a little lamb~ london bridge is faling down~ smiley faces cheerful heart~ lalalalalaa~ gotta study now.. catch up with you guys soon! ;)

Nostalgia

Just saw some pictures taken during my grandma's birthday few days ago..my mom sent those photos to me.. and i'm feeling so homesick now.. i almost cried when i was seeing those photos.. tears just couldn't help revolving in my eyes.. there used to be me and my family but for these..i'm not in the pictures.. and it feels really strange.. awkwardly strange..

i've been pretty good since i came to perth..it's been almost a year and life's going kinda great here.. i didn't realize how much i miss my family until i saw the photos.. like the photos are some sort of activator to homesickness.. Let me go home~


i could go back at 24 nov before the flight's changed, which is like few more weeks from now.. but for some reason i have to stay and work so i won't be going back anytime soon.. another few months of 'excruciation'..

Another aeroplane, another sunny place,
I'm lucky I know
but I wanna go home
I got to go home
Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

i miss home....

P/S: exam's in a week's time.. gotta do some cramming for sure.. and hopefully everything goes smoothly.. and.. all the best to all the people having exams out there as well.. let's pull it through!

about-myself tag

It's been two whole busy weeks! multicultural week, assignments, tests..will share with you guys soon. Stay tune! lol..

State 15 weird/habits/little known facts about yourself. The 10 people I tag are then supposed to follow in my footsteps and state their 15 weird things, habits, and little known facts.

1. Let's begin with something physical. I have both my toes (the 2 biggest ones) kind of like bend inwards. lol. look at your own feet now, imagine your 2 stupidest toes bending towards your other toes on the same foot, in this case, bending left on the left foot and bending right on the right foot. will show you guys one day :p

2. I have unequally 'folded' eyelids on both my eyes. They sometimes look just fine with both the same size but sometimes for no reason one of them changes its 'conformation' forming one double eyelid and one single-double eyelid. i wonder if my mom accidentally dropped me on the floor when i was a baby causing this stupid eyelids thing, but what the hell i still like my eyes lol.

3. this isn't really a little known fact and it's kinda like my signature moves, i can't stop blinking my eyes whenever i get anxious, or when i'm getting more and more excited talking to someone, just..i blink me eyes 24/7! not the normal kind of blinking, it's like i can blink double the times normal people do in one minute. you should know this if your my friend haha. it's become a habit and i just can't seem to take it off me! so i just let it be..lol

4. I get horny quite easily, perhaps i have abnormally well developed nervous system so my neurons can fire at a speed which is like 10 times faster than others so..whenever i see or hear something sex-related i'll get steamy LOL. not that i'll get a boner everytime but just the feeling of arousal..like a surge of testosterone. so ladies, pick me and you'll be the happiest girl in the world! xD

5. well this one is not a little known fact either, my hands do shake! shaking like massage chair some more haha..it runs in family i guess cos my dad my aunt and some of my cousins shake too..my dad even shook not only his hands, but his head! hilarious~ but i don't shake all the time! gees who shakes every second..that's tiring i can imagine haha. it's like when i'm holding something tightly or handling stuff (eg pouring chemicals into test tube, holding a thermometer carefully) then my hands will get shaky..my head doesn't haha =p

6. I don't like it when people accuse me with no reason. PLEASE..gather some evidences before 'suing' me for what i have never done. gees..

7. I don't cry that often, in fact, i don't really cry. When i cry, there would be 4 reasons:
- my close ones passed away
- feeling guilty
- seeing my close ones crying like hell and get affected
- being helpless
by 'cry' i mean CRY, not sobbing not tearing softly but CRY OUT LOUD..haha.

8. I get annoyed all the time. i get annoyed by every tiny little detail which doesn't really make any sense. like when i see someone acting cool, i'll have this OS "what the hell very cool meh @$#I^$^%#!$#%!" then after a few seconds i feel guilty of my thought..lol like there's an angel and a demon in my head arguing all the time, which contradicts me so much lol.

9. I'm obssessed with having a hot body like what most of those angmos have. so i'm currently pumping myself quite a bit but getting lazier each day lol. I'll have a hot body one day..i will..but one thing though, there's 2 totally unnecessary cumulated fat lumps like 2 stupid tumours sitting posteriorly on the 2 sides of my 'lumbar region' which i'm trying so hard to get rid of..but it seems impossible :S

10. (gosh 5 more to go..*brainstorming*) oh! I will be pissed off a little when people know more about something than i do haha (yea i'm totally selfish haha) cos in my mind i'm the best! lol. of course i'm not haha.. but seriously when someone tries to show off of his knowledge or something, i'll be like "cheh~" in my heart haha..

11. i want tanner skin tone! my body i mean..you'll know if you've seen my body before lol.

12. I care what people think about me..very much! how i wear, how i look, how my perosn is, how good i am blah blah blah.. though i'm like "oh ok la nvm la" all the time but i seriously care! lol. i always fake my emotion when people are dissing or talking bad about me..though this rarely happens. and that's why i like compliment a lot, even faking ones haha. (i'm desperate for compliments! lol.) but who doesn't haha..

13. I quit playing organ when i was 12, which i kinda regret now. wish i continued learning and play musical instruments or learn singing or learn something else..as a talent cos i'm pretty much a living corpse with no talent lol. seriously if i'm asked to tell what my talent is i completely have no idea lol..

14. I like to listen to music whenever i'm alone or down, all the ups and downs moments, and some of the songs have been there for me at some of the moments, like "分享" during our class camp, "Teach me" "What hurts the most" "Tonight i wanna cry" when my mom sold the Waja away (lol), "彩虹" when i miss my friends and so and so. "So close" has been one of my all time favorites ever since i watched the movie "enchanted"..just simply like the music and the voice and the story behind the song..*melt like a summer snowman*

15. (yay! the last one! my brain juice has been sucked up quite a lot with probly 1 nanolitre left) can't imagine my life without my grandma, though i always act like i don't really care but i do! hope she will live with me until the day i die..also my family..and my friends..love u guys!

and people who are interested, tag yourself haha.

STRESSED!

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!! wish i could go all the way to beach and SCREAM out everything within me..i'm so so so STRESSED!! holy moses..but i have no idea what i'm stressing for..quite several reasons combine and give birth to this holy fucking stress..seriously..i'm really torn apart..fucked up..not that bad..just feeling horrible..well i guess here are some reasons i could come up with..

-spent the whole weekend slacking instead of doing something meaningful (assignment..)
-fucking unreasonably long hair..(not exactly that long but it's annoying me! constantly!)
-will i stay or will i go stuff..my mom just found out that IMU is really a high standard institute(in fact it is..) and seems like 80% of the chance i'm going there next year, which is so to my dismay..
-McD part time job thing..the one i intended to apply for is currently not hiring any staff..damn it..
-some other trivial matters which contribute to this whole STRESS thing..which is fucking annoying!!

i'm supposed to get in bed soon..but what the MARTA FOCKER i couldn't close my eyes..once i do terrible matters keep pestering me..those stressful fucking idiots..damn it..i'm so not good when it comes to stress management..never got into such fucked up emotion before..darn it..

one more thing..i'm feeling terribly empty right now..like i've done nothing and have nothing to do..totally helpless feeling which i hate the most! what the fak..something please! fill me up! whatever it is just please..make me feel better..

gees..hopefully i'll get better tmr..and hopefully everything goes well..hopefully..

Will I stay or will I go?

I don't know..I don't know how long i can take this..it's gonna burst out of nowhere..but I don't want to..I really don't want to...
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Well here's another thing, not the crazy grumble above, totally not related, so please, don't senka senka imagine everything thanks =p It's about my future, again. Was chatting with my mum through MSN few days ago, as I expected, the "will i stay or will i go" thing was brought up, which I try so hard to stave off. yea, i'm too a coward to face reality. She then mentioned something about IMU, which is a great medical school in Malaysia. She found out (actually my aunt who pays all my fees did) that IMU actually offers Biomedical Science degree (yup the thing i'm doing) but it's a brand new course, will be commencing next year or something. Gees! of course i don't want to study in KL (no offense to people studying in KL), nothing much, just that i simply don't like KL, that's it.

Well we had a pretty serious talk (which is so not my style lol) about my future. I told her the thing that I might want to pursue my master degree after i graduate this Biomed thing, get a PR and get a job something, and then we carried on with another half an hour crap of, again, stuff about my future, kept telling me to be serious and be independent, who doesn't know! i mean, it's not easy to just step up like that, and the thing is, it feels kinda weird that i'm becoming an adult, dealing with my own stuff, starting to worry about life, so and so..sooner or later i'm gonna deal with all these cruel inhumane unethical life-sucking-problems, i know..yea, i know..and i will.. anyway, we then chatted about the utterly sucky economy nowadays and inevitably MONEY was dragged into our conversation. yea economy is deteriorating like it never had before, which sucks.

I got this surge of courage at that particular moment and i told my mum that "I don't want to go to KL" and there it was, she told me that she doesn't want me to go also, considering career opportunities and other fucking matters. Well honestly i was god-damningly glad at the moment hearing this sort of thing, but life doesn't always go the way you want it to, she then mentioned the fact that economy sucks and it's not easy for her to ask any more money from my aunt (though i'll pay her back when i work but...). My mum then "cited" the best quote of all time, "do the best, expect the worst" and if it really doesn't work, i'll really have to go to IMU or other institutions next year. In the end, we had an agreement, she gave me 2 weeks time to gather all the information i could about the PR thing and details about the course and my plan, to "support" the point that i'm staying so to facilitate my PR application in the future when she "debates" with my aunt. Lol! that sounds serious but it's not lol..my mum said she'll talk to my aunt that i'm staying for XXX reason and is for the best blah blah. So, yea..the biggest homework ever..

It's been few days and i've been doing research, little research. Nothing much, browsing through IMU website, squandering time, typical me lol, will continue this research thing, it's tough but i'ma pull this through! I seriously am. All the best to myself! I really really really hope that i cn stay, i know it's really expensive studying here but i'm gonna work harder in the future to pay back whatever debts (if there is any). I wanna stay..

Tagged by Chrisdut, the Chris of Dut

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
25 sounds perfect for me, but i think i'll marry someone only when i have it all planned and am able to stand on my own i.e. have my own career..

2. What is your most favorite thing to do?
for the moment, watching tv series and movies i guess..

3. If you have a close close close friend since childhood who loves to take away whatever you like, including guys/girls, and he/she always wins, will you still consider him/her your friend?
probly i'm used to it already at that moment..haha..

4. What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat?
i don't want to give up anything..but i'd still like to eat all i want in the world! maybe..$10? lol..

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
that would be..my dad alive..i guess..

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
No! there's no way i can live without money..not in a world like this where everything is about MONEY.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
my family and friends..typical..

8. What do you feel like doing, right now?
win a lottery of $15 million..so that i could go for med and give my family a better life..

9. If there's someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
it depends..depends on who that person is..if i'm really really really into her..i will..

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
ChrisHong? wuakakakakaa..
-he's a friend..a true friend..a truly true friend..
-he's hilarious and childish..at the same time..
-he's my partner! we set up quite a lot of business together..IGA..Pimple restaurant..

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
she has to have her own personality..funny..she can't be too hideous to be brought home..a little pretty perhaps..not too skinny..caucasian preferred but who knows..and the most important thing..comfortable to be with..

12. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
poser! faker! hypocrite!

13. What is your ambition?
be a well-known surgeon..with a considerable amount of income..

14. Is anyone really perfect?
No one, no one, no ooonnnee..(alicia keys "no one")

15. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick ?
wealth? happiness? can i have both? hmm..i'll probly go for happiness..there's no point for u to be so rich but miserable..

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
my masculinity! i'm too soft for a man..how can i take good care of my family in the future? so..be a man! and i'd love to have a hot body..like those male celebs..lol..

17. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
some of my close friends..you know i'm referring to u..=p

18. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
a world renowned surgeon married with the ms.right and have 2 kids..oh yea not to mention also..the hottest surgeon..XD

19. If someone had found a path to immortality to be bestowed upon you in exchange for one of your abilities, would you take it, and what would you sacrifice for it?
oh please..who wants to live forever and ever seeing your close ones dying..i'd rather to have 80 years of great life than to be a lonely immortal..

20. If you could return to the past, what would you do?
i would have spent more time with my dad and my grandpa..


I'll tag..anyone who wants to be tagged..go on and do the tag if your interested..

God loves everyone..

yes! God loves everyone of us..but i'm not gonna start a whole bunch of topic out of it..then..why the title? well you'll see..

for my first time i went to the youth gathering of my church this morning..with grace wong..we were rushing like hell cos we thought we were gonna be late..they said it started at 11am btw and by the time we reached there it was like 11.15am..but guess what..people were still waiting for the arrival of the president..lol..well it wasn't a big group for youth..there were like..10 of us? anyway..cos i had been to my ex-church's youth activity..and it didn't go well so i've had this not-so-good impression for youth since then..and why did i finally go this time? the president asked me to..since he's been asking me for like quite few times so i decided to go..give it a try at least.. anyway we then started the sing-along thing and doing prayers and stuff..we then watched a movie called "源来是爱", a hk production movie about how Jesus changes one's family's lives..sth like that..we didn't finish it though..gonna finish part two in two more weeks' time..and we did some sharing and we left..cos the church was decorated with wedding embellishments and yes! some couple were gonna get married soon..blessing! oh..the youth..after everything ended i felt pretty comfy with the process actually..i kinda liked it! it's a small group but it gave me the feeling of a whole little family..i was warmed..we then headed to Viet Hoa for lunch..nice~it was vietnamese food btw..so..nice~~

we went to Karaoke afterwards..at 2pm sth..grace n i..we first went to the Utopia in northbridge without expecting any fully-booked situation..and yes..not a room available for 5 of us.. 2 of her friends and 1 of my friend..5 of us! damn it..grace n i then went to meet other 3 up..(before that her friends were like on and off about the karaoke stuff..they said they're going but the next sec they turned us down..what the hell..and the next sec they got back on track and sticked to the plan..again..lol..) and finally it was around 4pm we got to meet everyone else..what a relief hoho..but bad thing started happening..we took a bus to the place..sort of like the area of the other Utopia..but none of us recognized the place..and we ended up totally lost and walking all the way down the street asking people..and it was 15 mins later and..we saw the sign Utopia! thank god! pretty exhausted walking there but once we got into that room..we were high like hell! gosh..well i was the most excited guy for sure..anyway..we totally had fun..and we paid $7 for each! for 2 hours..nice~

it was 6.40pm sth and grace n i were supposed to go back to her home and she drove to UWA for a musical - "Imagine Christmas"..organized by New Life City Church which started at 7.30pm..but it was too late to do so..so we took the train instead and we waited for the bus for like probly half an hour? yea..we were late..luckily the pastor was talking about sth before the musical got started so..we were still on time for the musical! woohoo! lights off..a little girl came out and said sth like, "i wonder how does christmas look like?" and there began a series of performances..mainly riveted on the birth of Jesus..the funny part was the 2 angels..they totaly sounded like characters in How I Met Your Mother..a TV series..which was hilarious! the way they acted..the way they talked..other than the 2 funny angels..there were people dancing..singing..kids singing in choir..which was cute..and the scene when people from all over the world(i suppose..) came and witness the birth of Jesus..the savior of people..and that part..that part was amazing! i got goosebumps at the moment..how powerful Jesus can be to attract people all over the world to come and adore him..totally amazing..wonderful.. the song "O come let us adore Him.." was playing at the moment..we sang along..the pastor..Pastor Eu..ended the whole show with a splendid speech..he said how he transformed himself from hating Christians and churches to one to be saved..it kinda touched my heart everytime i listen to him preaching..telling story..i can feel God's love amongst us when we were praying..that was glorious..imagine christmas..i'm impressed..when we started to leave and were planning to take a bus and so..worrying about the darkness..we ran into my housemate! thank god! cos when grace n i were on our way to UWA..before the show started..we were hoping that we would stumbled upon someone who can give us a ride home..and there he was! amazing ay.. and of course..he sent grace back and we went back home..we got slightly lost finding our way home after sending grace wong back..it was fine though..we managed to get out of that place in just few mins later..nice~

a little video of a guy singing..i didn't record the two girls duet and the angels crapping though..my phone was out of battery! so it took time to change and i only managed to record this one..i wanted to concentrate some more so..the show was great anyway hoho..


well that's pretty much of what i've been through today..what a wonderful day..busy yet still wonderful..amazing..though i still haven't really had my dinner yet but i'm gonna have some soon..guess what? i'll have Dorito's chips i bought as my dinner..well..call it supper if u like..anyway..yea..what a day! nice~

Crush on iTunes!

Yay! iTunes! it's my first time downloading song through iTunes! my first LEGAL download..lol..of course, the song i downloaded was...wait for it..ttaaddaahhhh! it's David Archuleta's brand new single "Crush"!! woohoo~ i'm so excited right now..i'm thrilled!! first time doing something in a legal way..there's really difference between illegal downloads and legal downloads like iTunes..the quality is sooo much better and it makes the song sound nicer! okay....maybe not..they're pretty much the same..but seriously, downloading a song from iTunes man! feeling GREAT~ like i just did something glorious..or something like i won 10 gold medals for malaysia in olympic..or like receiving a $10,000,000 angpau..or like flirting with hot chicks....it just felt like anything GOOD that u can name out..*fly me to the moon, let me lie on the cloud 9~*

how much did i pay for it? well..sorry to tell but..it was free!! FREE!! FOC!! lol..can it be any better? huh? can it?? my my..i'm too excited to spill a word..hahahaha anyway i actually got this iTunes redemption card during UWA Expo..it was sort of like UWA open day..we visited the chemistry stall and that girl gave me this card..with 3 free songs available..not 1..not 2..THREE!! XD luckily joyce and elaine don't really use iTunes so..spontaneously..that card belonged to me! it was a month ago i guess and i've been waiting for this "Crush" to come out..i once searched for "Crush" on iTunes when i heard it's out in US..but returned with no result..gees..aussie iTunes..mao bian..so i just kept waiting and waiting..and it's worth the wait! i finally came across this song when i searched for it just now..AAAHHHH!! i'm so damn happy right now..couldn't be happier..i just took ecstasy some more so.......lalalalalaa~

David Archuleta's "Crush"! the one i posted here in my blog isn't the one i downloaded..i couldn't upload it to imeem..protected konon..anyway it's the same like i said..but mine is LEGALLY downloaded! so proud of myself..*strut like a cocky little next door bastard* anyway enjoy the song..i'm still so turned on..can't get into my dreamy dreamland..lol..

had a nice day

row row row your boat gently down the street~
merrily merrily merrily merrily blah blah blah blah blah~
(when you see a crocodile, don't forget to scream~AAAHHH~)

woolala~ woolala~ woolala~ woolala~
the weather was fine..no labs..no tutes..new lecturer..all the chores were done..met a gorgeous girl.. it's totally one of the best days in my life!

i was kinda worried before yesterday..as some of u might know..i had a lab report due yesterday..which i hadn't got started on monday! it was the molecular bio report..damn fool report..so monday night i was rushing the report all night long..introduction, results, discussion, conclusions..and wait for it..REFERENCES! i hate references so much tat i actually wanted to copy and paste from the net..but this might cost me my whole life so..just have to bear with it..anyway i started doing the report at monday night..again..the last minute thing..never improved..lol~i worked till midnight which was like 1 in the morning then i went to bed..couldn't bother to finish the report cause there would be a 2-hour-interval for me the next day before the report was due, which was yesterday, which was tuesday, which was the dateline for the report..

the next morning..woke up..went to uni with totally bad bad mood..attended the 1st lecture..headed straight to the library to finish all the rest..i actually had a lecture at 12pm but i skipped it for the god damn report..luckily there was this girl sitting next to me in the library who does molecular bio as well..she solved quite a lot of problems for me..thank goodness..(turns out she's the girl sitting behind me in the lab haha what a coincidence..) printed the whole report out..done! yay!

then the lab..which i left so late for the last one..joyce and i started brilliantly quick after the demonstrator's long long long talk..(he took so much longer to explain all the procedures than other demonstrator..lol..but that's fine..) we were still the fastest pair in our group until we couldn't find a DNA solution thing which we needed to complete the last one for the day! holy moses..we waited and waited for probly half an hour..or 20mins..then joyce went begging around for the solution..lol..inevitably we ended up being the last ones..AGAIN..but since it was still before 5pm so it was fine..we could actually leave at 4.35pm sth but we had to wait for the DNA-enzyme blah blah solution to be incubated for 30mins so 4.55pm..we left..and we took pictures in the meanwhile waiting for the fucking bacteria enzyme thing..

Molecular Biology of the Cell lab..located at QEII hospital L block..the 2 fellows there are our demonstrator, John and the woman on the left, Charlene, our lecturer..
Joyce the zoydo and the fucking 37C waterbath..the place where we "incubated" our DNA-enzyme blah blah thing..
Joyce and the 2 fellows..
Me! and the two fellows as well..lol..see..no one else was there..haha..

i was so happy that we could finally leave on time..went back home and i started doing all the chores..eg. washing all my socks which i've been forsaking for a week probly..they stink..XD and put all my accumulated mountain-like clean washed clothes back to the wardrobe..and for the 1st time i watched tv here..by myself haha..i watched a couple of series.."Today Tonight" which sam mentioned in facebook.."Find my family" a reality show helping ppl find their family, the show was kinda touching..esp the moment those long-lost family reunite..ow~ then i watched an aussie series premiere "packed to the rafters"..a funny one..haha..then i facebooked for a while uploading pictures..which i couldnt..wonder why..and went to bed..

then i woke up this morning..wednesday..the only day i can wake up late cos no early lectures! love wednesday haha..facebooked a little while and went to uni..as i said..weather today was bloody fine..sunny, a tiny little windy, smelt good some more..i then had 3 back to back lectures from 12-3pm..that was fine though..cause i felt so great that i couldn't bother the boredom of the lectures..i was all intoxicated in my own happily-ever-after mood..I feel good! dadadadadadada~ and it was time i went back home..heading to bus stop and joyce ran into her volleyball mate..a russian girl Nikki..which i saw her picture with joyce taken during their residential college ball.. gosh! she's so gorgeous! and i told her that she's pretty and she was like "ooww~" which means "how sweet~" XD then i went back home with my never-better mood..i'm loving it~

Sorry~

Prerequisite for this post: my previous post "Rainy season" XD nah just FYI, joyce and i are partner for this lab..and note one thing..we were the last ones to leave during the last lab 2 weeks ago..shameful lol..

I have my Molecular biology lab on tuesday once a fortnight..i had my 2nd lab for this unit this afternoon..i thought i was so well prepared for all the experiment things..procedures blah blah blah..not to mention i did quite some research on the lab topic today..i felt kinda confident before walking into the lab today..but after the lab................

we had a little quiz before the lab..it was completely little and when i say it's little..it is little..lol~ it was like a 2 simple questions quiz..not sure about the purpose though..easy marks i guess..the lab instructor then started explaining a little about how was the lab gonna go and stuff..we then commenced the experiment..i kinda told myself that i would never want to be the last-leaver again so we did all the steps pretty quick compared to the last lab..but still..as things went on and others were already doing the last few steps while joyce n i were still working on the first few steps..Gees! what was wrong?! we didn't even procrastinate a sec..maybe we did lol but what on earth led us to such a slow work?! ppl were finishing but we were still working on it..i could feel so obvious that adrenaline was pumping at the moment..once this adrenalin-pumping thing happens i tend to be spaced out so much..i couldn't even carry on my writing at the moment..and there i was..stuck for a few mins looking at my half-done lab notebook while other students were cleaning up their stuff and preparing to leave..*NO!!!!!*

clock was ticking so slow since then..it was already 5pm sth and we were supposed to finish at 4.45pm..there were only 2 of us(only students left) and our demonstrator, John and other groups' demonstrators left..all students had left but us..other than the 2 of us and John, the others started cleaning up the lab while we were rushing the lab notebook.."oh come on! write faster! jesus christ people are waiting!!" i kept telling myself that when i was trying so hard to smash everything in my mind into the notebook.."Yay!! done!!" finally i was done..looked around..i saw joyce rushing hers as well, John waiting for us and the worst part..all other demonstrators were standing at the door pretty impatiently waiting for us to finish and lock the lab! gosh..i felt ssssoooo embarrassed..i could actually feel the awkward atmosphere..it was tense..and i felt like saying "AWKWARD" out loud lol..it was already 5.30pm when the 2 of us finally completed and when we walked out the door i was about to apologize but turned out..i said thank u..LOL~you guys should see their expressions on the face..frowning + staring + mumbling..maybe they didn't lol..cause after we left we met John on our way back and he said sth about the other demonstrators..sth like about they're shitty or complaint or stuff..couldnt really get what he said though lol..perhaps it was because John's words i felt even guiltier..the other demonstrators are gonna abhor us so much..NNOOO!! =.=

John's a nice guy though..he didn't even get mad..very patient some more waiting for us without any grumbling..oh my~guiltiness came flooding all over me at the moment.. T.T feel so sorry to John..and also to the other demonstrators..promise..i won't be that slow anymore..hopefully i wont lol..or else i predict they're gonna shoot me in the face next time if i'm leaving late hoho..

Sick of sickness

so sick..sick of being sick..sick sucks..gees..i wonder if god is fooling me..
ulcers on both lips and tongue, sore throat, back aching, running nose..could it be any worse?!

ulcers, how i caused mine? here's the story. Once upon a time, there was a yogurt talking joyfully while he was enjoying his lunch as well..in only few minutes time, he had talked the crap out of his ass without noticing that he was still eating..poor him..just when his story-telling hit the climax...AAHH! He BIT his lips! it was alright if he bit once..i have totally no idea why on earth i could bit my lips 3 times in a row in only this brief lunch time..fucking ridiculous lol..

perhaps my other disastrous illnesses are all complications of ulcers..haha..i could barely eat the whole day today..i was struggling to stuff food into my mouth during dinner..i didn't have my lunch lol..speaking of which, breakfast..gosh..total nightmare..i woke up this morning and realized the ulcer on my tongue..what the fuck..wonder how it popped out in one night..sandwiches were prepared by my homestay aunty this morning..yea the tasty ones for sure haha..but this whole sick thing caused me my appetite..i was like eating faeces with thorns and splinters..everytime i tried to place the sandwich into my mouth n tore it like i always do..fucking ulcers came out and said,"hey moron! i'm here! don't you dare ignoring me!" then it gave me this sort of labouring pain..damn..couldnt even enjoy eating such yummy food..shame on you ulcers!

right now i'm doing some kind of pre-study for my human bio tutorial tmr..trying so hard to look for details online..but the villains with "ulcers the uttermost-bad-bad-captain" are defending their territory, which is "making yogurt yong feel as sick as possible territory"..OH MY GOD! leave me alone schmucks! hopefully the medicines i just took can help shooing them away..

p/s: i hate ulcers!

Winter = Rainy season = ANNOYING!

raining raining~ ooh baby it's raining raining~ ella ella eh eh under my umberella~
Yo! it's Rihanna! the umbrella! lol..forgive me for saying such a lame thing..well u cant actually blame me..cause it's raining raining~ ooh baby it's raining raining XD It's been raining since winter started..luckily it's winter, or i swear rain + hotness = best way of committing suicide! unfortunately there are still some fellows out there suffering from the "suicide peak season" thing haha..it's really driving me nuts..seriously..once it starts raining, it's not gonna rain the whole day long..well it is but not the way of continuous raining..it rains for 10 mins then break for another 5..there comes another 30mins peeing and 10 mins drizzling..gees..the worst part..i broke my umbrella! it was a stormy afternoon and i was taking my way to bus stop under this beautiful rain..i didn't bother to open my umbrella but the downpour was getting heavier and heavier so..i took it out and i was supposed to open it..yea i did..but guess i was too pissed by the rain that i over push the umbrella and it was broken! damn..and i ended up showering under the rain.. =.=

there was one more..happened just few hours ago..i had my molecular bio lab at QE2, a hospital..doing something DNA extraction..trust me..it was boring..anyway before i walked into that building it was still sunny like sunshine never fades~ whatever i then busy working on the lab thing extracting DNA from chicken liver cell..lol~ guess what..whenever there's a lab, i always tend to be the last one to leave..so does joyce..since we're partners wuakaka.. i felt quite embarrassed cause i had to let my demonstrator (let's call him John..in fact..his name is john lol) wait for me to get my stuff done..what a shame..anyway he's a nice guy so i guess he wouldn't mind? XD "Yes! i'm done!" what a relief..and joyce n john n myself walking out tat building..what we saw was something totally distracting..it was raining! cats n dogs! damn..then i heard "What a nuisance..(giggle)"..john popped this out..LOL~he seriously got it right..it was a nuisance..then i got my ass out to the rain since i had to do so to get to the bus stop..damn it was so far away! i finally got there n gees..no roof? only a timetable stand?! and one thing..the bus just went away in front of me! wtf..so i had to wait for another 15 mins..gosh that was the longest 15 mins i've ever experienced.. luckily it wasn't raining so bad at the moment..AT THE MOMENT..i'm really strongly emphasizing this one..since the next second i had this thought, a car passed by and the water on the road nearly splashed all over me! damn! the next sec..GOD~i wonder if god was eavesdropping..it rained so heavy that i had to run to the opposite bus stop with a roof to shoo the rain away..anyway i would have to face the reality that my umbrella was broken..i still had to walk back to the bus stand eventually..under the rain! without an umbrella! gosh..i got on the bus in the end and thank god i arrived home safely! gotta get myself an umbrella sooner..i had really had enough rain today lol~enough is enough! wuakakaka..but it's hard to find an unbreakable and designed-to-be-carried-along and reasonably priced umbrella..so i guess the rain still gets to play with me for the next few days =.= FYI, it's gonna rain throughout this entire week..HELP~~

Battle of the Choirs

Battle of the Choirs, an Australian choir competition, which is currently aired on the Seven Network(it's an australian channel) every Sunday 7.30pm. Choirs from all over Australia compete against one another and now, it's down to 3 groups, which are VoxSynergy, Harambee, and University of Newcastle. These 3 groups are going to sing for their lives next Sunday on the Grand Final (no doubt it's gonna be one hell of a final hoho).

i wasn't really watching this show until just now, cause believe it or not, i always wanted to watch but damn..i always missed! i told myself i couldn't miss it anymore so after my dinner just now, i rushed to the living room, switching on the tv, sit back and get everything done right before the clock struck 7.30pm..i was so so so anticipated that i almost got suffocated..gees.."Oh! oh! oh! there we go! let the show begins!" Yay! couldn't wait any longer.. So as the show went on, the 4 semi finalists performed their own prepared song called "Top Tunes", followed by a Surprise medley which would be sung by all 4 of the choirs, judges would then deliberate and send one best-of-the-night group straight to the Grand Final, which was VoxSynergy! wuakaka..leaving the other 3 choirs singing their "Battle Tunes" to strive themselves a place in the grand final, with Harambee singing "Proud Mary", which was absolutely phenomenal, University of Newcastle singing "Cry Me a River"(yea the Justin's), which went great as well, and VoiceWorks singing "Bubbly", which i thought was kinda great too but Voiceworks got evicted.

Well, speaking of the 3, my personal favorite goes to...VoxSynergy! as you can tell.. gosh..they're just too fabulous to be described..though i didn't watch the previous episodes, i was just too intrigued by the clip showing a compilation of their previous performances..they once sang Sarah McLachlan's "Angel"..OH.MY.GOD! That performance was utterly fantastically awesome! The song was absolutely beautifully sung and damn! i was moved when i first heard them singing the song..even for the 2nd and the 3rd time i heard..i was still touched..and i'll always be touched by their rendition of "Angel"..they're awesome! (Sarah McLachlan's version is also sensational sure enough) about the VoxSynergy's version..there was a little technical problem like the judges said though..who cares! not even the judges care so much about it..cause it was truly a moving performance..nah~you guys won't get what i said..enjoy the clip and you will find out how not exaggerated i was..can't wait for the grand final~

VoxSynergy singing "Angel"..did i mention that the guy soloist has got a great voice? enjoy~

What to do?

It has been ages since I cried. I can still recall myself crying on the plane the day I left my friends and family to pursue my study oversea. That doesn't sound like something that I should cry for, I just couldn't control the tears from shedding and my body from trembling, or perhaps twitching, the harder I tried to inhibit it from occurring, my body just went the opposite way and turned out trembling even more terrible. PUFF. I cried, just like that, like my life was over. I was trying so damn hard to hide my emotion but I failed. That was a crying of reluctance of separation. After all the settling down here at Perth and things went pretty well as they seemed, I then realized that the world wasn't over so soon. Few months later, I cried again...

Just a few minutes before this post, I spilt my tears, it was merely a mild weeping though, this time, was a weeping of don't-know-what-to-do, my mind was in a total chaos,or call it dilemma, I felt so helpless, never felt worse since my 1st day here. Well, here's the reason..

It's gonna be the 2nd semester of my 1st year study, for sure, tuition fees should be paid before the term starts, which is 28 July. For some of you might know, my family is not wealthy at all, I should consider myself so lucky that I get to study here. FYI, It's not my mom who renders all the expenses and tuition fee, my aunt does. I know it's not a small amount for me to complete my study here, rising of Aussie dollars somewhat burdens my aunt and family more. So I understand that I shouldn't take all these for granted and I never did (but I've been a little out of control recently cause this holiday bores me so much that I keep spending money on unnecessary things). Until just now, I called my aunt for the 2nd semester tuition fee. I was struggling to call her cause it's always so uneasy to ask someone especially an elder for money, I spent almost a week to build up my mind and finally, I made my call (it was so tough, believe me, it was tougher than you could imagine).

My heart was beating so rapidly, adrenalin level rose so spontaneously, perspiration dripping all over my body, I was so near to suffocation. gosh!.. alright, that's a little off-limit haha. She picked up her phone, there I started my taking-me-one-week and not well prepared "speech". I thought that was all I needed to do and she's gonna pay all my fees until the day I graduate, that had made up my thoughts leastwise. I wasn't expecting any other questions from my aunt, at least not some out of the blue questions. She started asking me about the scholarship thing that I applied for before I came here, I told her that there still hasn't been any word about it yet. She then said something kinda harsh, maybe she didn't mean to be rough but her words just didn't come out right for me, she asked me why I would make my decision so hastily to study here before the scholarship thing's done, she said that I should wait for the scholarship to be adopted before I made up my mind to go anywhere else, and she said that how I could be going to study oversea without any confirmation of the scholarship thing. Frankly speaking, I was stunned by what my aunt just said, not blaming her for those words but perhaps I'm just too sensitive to perceive something so..sensitive. For the fact that she has her own children to take care of, I really couldn't charge her for saying something like that. She then asked me if it's possible to carry over my study at KL and back to Perth during my final year, which I'm very reluctant of. I would have done that if I wanted to do so for the first time. Not that I'm dissing those who study in KL, it's just personal. She told me that it would be nicer if I continue my following years in KL so that it won't be such a great burden on her since she still has two kids to worry about. She would still pay for the 2nd semester tuition fee though. I told her with fully unwillingness that I would try to contact my agent if she could help me with all these, tears were brimming at that second.

I was enjoying a show called "Whose line is it anyway?" at the moment with cookies in my mouth, still laughing my ass off before the call. Totally dazed after the conversation with my aunt, leaving myself with my cookies and the comedy on the screen, I felt lonely, scared, somehow petrified, as I said, helpless, cause I don't want to pack my bags to KL next year! But it's the reality that leaves me no choice, AAHHH! I was in so a contradiction. I hate this feeling, and right after she hung up, I cried. Staring at my laptop screen showing the everyone-laughing-scene, I couldn't even fake a smile. A part of me was thinking to accept the reality but another part of me was strongly opposing that idea. After the crying-out-not-so-loud, I tried to calm myself and here I am, typing all these, phew~feeling much better now, maybe crying helped nothing but at least, letting out my emotion making me feel so much easier. I realize that I should really do something other than plain crying like a baby, just that I don't like to deal with such situation, it makes me hate myself for being so useless that I can't even help with these things, the only thing I'm capable of is to do my best in this 2nd semester, and spend money wisely and carefully. I'm so much comforted after typing my thoughts out, gonna call my mom for a little discussion tomorrow. Hope I can sleep my night out peacefully later, don't mess me up, nightmare!

P.S. I really want to stay! ='(

气到炸 + 闷到爆

也没那么气啦 不过闷到爆是完全没有夸张的成分 闷死我啦!

气 气什么咧? 还不是看完星光3败部复活赛 把自己气到血脉喷张 七孔流血 体无完肤 面目全非 =.= 总之就是气!

为何把自己搞得那么气? 反正都与我无关..

理论上是这样没错 但身为星光忠实观众 眼看着星光从第一届单纯的比赛 到现在第三届乱七八糟的 真是闻者流泪啊~（流个屁泪啊XD）

所谓的乱七八糟 不是参赛者 我个人觉得是评审的问题 第一届时评审都用超严格的标准看待选手 到了第三届 可能评审们是中了邪 嗑错药 评分都乱乱来的 尤其是众所瞩目的踢馆赛 吼~很明显地评审为了要保住某些选手而给分都失去了常规..

就拿徐佳莹来说好了 她的创作是没话说 但她那次在踢馆赛碰到对手女高音洪子涵时的表现（有一个故事）明显比她上周的表现（圆舞曲）来的逊 而评审为了把徐保住就给她比上周（20分）还高的分数（21分） 就为了徐不被对手击败而给到与对手相同的分数 这哪门子的道理啊?! 我是满喜欢徐的啦 但比赛就是为求公正嘛 这什么东东啊..

就像这次的败部复活赛（一个让已被淘汰的选手能重返星光舞台的环节 第一届根本就没有这种多余的东西 到了第二届节目为了把某些不慎被淘汰的高材生挽救回来而设了这样的一个环节） 一个实力超强的踢馆者孙碧娜（韩国人）演唱顺子的“回家” 有耳朵都听得出来是一段20分以上的演唱 而她却只获得了19分 反观之前已被淘汰的选手赖圣恩 只凭着自编舞蹈就获得18分 评审也有说赖的歌唱是跟不上舞蹈的 难道就为了决赛有个能跳舞的就把赖救回来吗? 那岂不是对其他的选手不公吗?! 什么态度..

徐佳莹自创曲“圆舞曲”（20分）


徐佳莹自创曲“有一个故事”（21分）


孙碧娜“回家”（19分）


赖圣恩“竹林深处/第五街的诱惑组曲”（18分）


过去让他过去 来不及 从头喜欢你 白云缠绕着蓝天 啊~..........（林晓培-心动 这首歌突然浮现在脑海中XD）

说到都气 算了啦 反正第一届最棒就对了~XD 林宥嘉赞啦~

说完气到爆 是时候谈谈闷到爆了XD
怎么个闷法呢?
工作还没找着..不知何时才能找到.. 电脑又有问题..软体硬体 问题通通都来凑热闹..=.=网路也在日渐减速当中..
S.O.S!!

P/S: 为什么人类要生智慧齿? 痛死了!

Face of the Future

wonder how yourself look like when you grow older and older? worry about how ugly you might become when you are a 70-year-old? (lol..that sounds so much like ad..haha)
i found a website where you can foresee your future look! how cool is that! But please, don't expect something sophisticated coming out..it's merely a simple entertaining tool..so, try it out! i find it kinda funny though..you can even transform yourself into Caucasian, Afro-Carribean, West-Asian, Baby, Child, Adult, and for sure a Chimp! hilarious~XD experience it! :)

the most original version of myself XD
first up, my baby look
my look in 50 years i guess, kinda creepy though =.=
my Caucasian look! XD
if i were a west-asian..
this one is so LOL~it looks surprisingly like someone elseXD this is my afro-carribean look

and last but not least..a Chimp! lol..

Freedom: good thing? or catastrophe?

WARNING: long post ahead! well maybe not that long..get yourself well prepared and make sure you pee before reading the following content..XD


Exam's finally over! congrats man! Jesus..being a last minuter is always not an easy thing..though i've told myself like thousand times not to tolerate with procrastination, i could barely resist the temptations around me..i had 5 exams, for 4 units, with 2 of them i did the dilly-dallying thing..the 2 unlucky subjects were psychology and chemistry..which happened to be my first and last exam..gosh! i was like cramming the whole encyclopedia-like psychology textbook crazily the day before the actual exam and i spent that whole daylong from 5am to 1am(lets see..20 hours! wow..) on that book..my brain didnt work really well during the exam though..damn it..for chem, i got started right the night before like..4 or 5pm? luckily chem exam was at 2pm the next day so i managed to finish all the lecture slides and what i wasn't expecting was the chem paper came out with the exactly same things from those tutorial notes! Jesus Christ! well..should have known that earlier..XD so, people out there, here's a piece of advice, never do things in the eleventh hour! that kills you! yea i was murdered several times in my brain-body slaughter..but..i'm ALIVE!! i survived the exam! thank god for that haha..

i was so deadly excited like everyone else when the bell rang..that meant exam was over!! one of my friends was screaming like a lunatic jumping up n down like a schizophrenic patient..well..that was kinda swt..XD i purposely stayed at my place until the very last moment during the last exam..although i finished the paper way earlier than the time..come on~it was the last time sitting in tat place for this semester..sure i appreciated it much..lol..XD and guess what..it was time for for emancipation! Let's get the party started! =.= i went back home afterwards and started slacking around like i struck the jackpot..never have been so relaxed! but here's the problem..i got bored after the slacking moment i had..nth to play..nth to watch..nth to do! and that's why i titled it as "catastrophe"..and thats what so called human nature..XD when you're stifled working on something, u wish u could have nothing to do, but when you have nothing to do, u wish u could have something to do..gosh..typical human being..XD

Did i ever mention that i'm gonna look for a part-time job during this one-month winter holiday? i assume i did..lol..well here's another matter pestering me..what kind of job should i find? McDonald's? KFC? or Woolworth? Coles? or apply for sth like waiter? and how am i gonna fit into those "co-workers"? cause u know..i have this kind of phobia..i call it "Caucasianphobia"..i'm so timid when it comes to talking to caucasians..not all of them..but to my peers..like those teenagers of my age..weird huh? well perhaps i'm not confident enough with my communication skill n my english speaking..cause i always talk to my friends like i'm stammering all the time..guess i have to practice more? -.- maybe i'm just being paranoid..way too paranoid.. What goes around goes around goes around comes all the way back around~yeah~ lol~XDD

Speaking about movies, yeap..admit it..you're a movie freak yogurt yong! yea of course i am..i always am..i'm not crowned this title for nth..i've watched each n every movie showing now in the cinema here..except The Hulk..but gonna make it next week or so..XD seriously..since i came here, i've watched tonnes of movies like i never did in kk..want me to list the movies out? alright alright i know u're desperate knowing it..XD the 1st i watched was 10000B.C, followed by Step up 2 the streets, Prom night, Superhero, Iron man, Made of honour, What happens in vegas, Untraceable, Indiana Jones 4, 21, Sex and the city, Narnia: Prince Caspian, Speed racer, Kungfu Panda, You don't mess with Zohan, and the happening..16 movies..they probably cost me nearly 180 bucks or so..lol~i can buy original DVDs in kk with this amount! crap..now i realize how bad my willpower is..but hey! life without movies is not called LIFE! well that's personal though XD maybe i can set up my business like..establishing cinemas? movies? being a director? an actor? hmm..not a bad idea though..i'll think about it..*pondering seriously..utterly frowning eyebrows* XD

Hiatus

yea..exam's on going..wont show up until i survive through the whole thing XD

see u guys soon~
dont miss me..
and..pray for me!! XD

i will always love you (all)~~

Cheers,
yog

A Day of Fortune

yea..as stated..it was my very day of luck! XD story happened 2 days ago..Wednesday....

i had my last chem tutorial for this hell-like semester..class ended at 6pm..as usual..sky turned dark..it was completely terrifyingly dark..sth like 8pm in KK.. and also as usual..i took a bus home.. and there.. after i alighted at the bus stop near my house..sth unusual was going on.. i smelt the odour of BBQ..i was like..damn~who the hell was having a bbq party..without inviting me?! how dare =.= then when i approached my house..i saw a total blackout.. the first thought flashing over my mind was: out of electricity? short circuit? tiada karent? well then only i found out when i saw my housemates holding torches pacing up and down.. the kitchen was on fire! Oh My Gosh!! Could tat be happening? damn! i missed a fire! should have come back earlier to witness the gorgeous burning flame..XD cause of the fire..we couldnt even entered thru the front door since it was too black to walk..which made the kitchen's back door the entrance.. well i was kinda overwhelmed by the fire at the moment honestly..i kept asking my housemate questions about the fire..then i knew..it was caused by Unattended-Deep-Frying-Fish~(UDFF) XD my host mother was out for sth..leaving the cooking fish..with open fire..she didnt tell my other housemates tat she was going out..only when my housemate(Belinda,24, IT postgrad student, other 'hostee' like me from kk) smelt sth really smoky n choking..(both of them were sleeping at the moment the fire blasting XD) then right after..she heard fire alarm ringing! she prompted my other housemate(Herbert, 20, medicine student, one of the family members of my host family) who was also enjoying his deep sleep to the kitchen n checked out what was wrong..n they were like Oh my gosh! how?! should we turned the fire off? yea..i could imagine their hilarious panicking reaction XD according to their words..the fire was burning vigorously..only on the scope of the cooking range..other areas werent really affected much..n when the fire was on its way..it burnt down the "smoke sucker" above n the whole thing was like crashing to the ground..n that freaked my housemates' asses a goddamned lot..XDD

yea back to the part tat we needed to enter using back door..since the wall of the kitchen is completely made by glass..so what i saw was a range with totally black ash n SMOKE! i could barely see the whole thing clearly since my other housemate(Patrick, 24, Pharmacist, Herbert's bro) cut the electricity off..perhaps to prevent the house from explosing? who knows..XD yea clearly..the funniest part was the 3 of us(Belinda Herbert n myself) had a test the next day! Belinda was gonna have her very last exam..Herbert was gonna have his clinical practical test stuff n a lil lil lil tiny lab quiz for lucky me~XD we were like..shit..fail..lol~ call me a loyal guy..cause after the fire incident Herbert brought Belinda n me to my uni's library to study..which made me a loyal UWA student..who would ever go back n forth between home n school in only like an hour interval? yup..tat would be me! prizes pls~lol~ after tat the current thingy was fixed n we went back home..here was the 1st part of being LUCKY =.=

now..here comes a serious one.. i was doing revision for the test tmr as a last-minute preparation after we came back from uni n i tried to restart my comp since sth was so wrong..then..i press RESTART..n for sure..the comp restarted =.= then.. i encountered problem shutting down the comp..so i senka-ly pulled the plug off from my comp n started up again..that was the stupidest thing i've ever done..since i did tat for quite a sometimes before n everything was perfectly alright..but for this time..i started up my comp..not working..ok..maybe the comp was mad at me for being rude to him..so i tried again..couldnt work at all!! i was like what the fuck r u trying to joke with me? come on! i have a test tmr! cant u save ur angriness for the next time after exam?! well..it tunred out not working at all..i started to crumble..even worse when Patrick told me my hard disk collapsed..i was like..WTF?! dont fool me around man i have heart attack!! then i totally crumbled hearing these words..my photos-of-memories..videos..movies..songs..lecture notes..bookmarks..all gone?! dont scare me!! gosh..i really felt like crying out loud..

well..Patrick fixed the thing for me until 3sth..a.m...i couldnt study at all though he asked me not to worry about it..sigh~how could i be no worry for that? my laptop was out! hello?! SIGH~couldnt be bothered more to study..cause my mind was abetting me to go to bed..n poor lil me..i complied with my mind..n well for the lab quiz the next day i got 6 out of 10..where almost everyone got like 8 or 9 over 10..=.= well at least it wasnt tat bad like..fail? no way..XD before the test..when i was giving it a shot to start the comp up..n..know what? it worked!! damn i was so excited! thank god..then there i went to uni..but when i came back from uni with a wholehearted of hope n plan with my comp..it stucked..again!! damn..but for this time i was like tapping all around the laptop n tried again..n..for god's sake..it was working!! woolala~n it has been working since then..until now..hopefully it wont burst out n break down again..i wont be able to withstand this kind of cruel barbarous savage brutal inhuman treatment! no more! n please~~ no more for me.. XDD

btw, just now went to Carousel(the largest shopping mall in Perth) with Belinda n Harald..we watched Sex and the City!! that was such a cool movie..though the trailer seems boring to me but surprisingly..i love the movie~ but the prob is..those women are so old =.= anyway..i dont think Sex and the City is permitted on Malaysia's screen..if it does then for sure..it's way rated..cause it's unrated version we watched n we can even see women's tits nipples n guy's dick..oh man..tat was the most exciting part of all~(im not that kind of person XDD) well other than SEX..there r still other elements like friendship n stuff tat u can find out in the movie..of course indispensable material: Branded stuff!! Louis Vuitton, Versace, Dior, Gucci...damn! i want!! XDD

6..anything special about '6'?

I'm still wondering..why 6.. =.=

6 things I'm passionate about;
* Music (listening to music), Singing (trust me..im not a good singer)
* Movies
* Eating
* Visiting new places
* Watching singing competition (e.g. American Idol~)
* Hanging out with friends


6 things I say too often;
* Are you serious?!
* Yea..
* you know.. like..
* Oh my god/gosh/goodness!
* Damn..
* Hey~


6 books I've read recently;
* Psychology textbook
* Anatomy Physiology: the Unity of Form and Function
* Ikea catalogue
* (i dont read books!)
* (i dont read books!)
* (i dont read books!)


6 songs I could listen to over & over again;
* In This Moment - David Archuleta
* So Close - Jon Mclaughlin
* Come Home - One Republic
* Mad World - Gary Jules
* Breathless - Shayne Ward
* Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

6 things I learnt for the past year;
* appreciate every opportunity that comes to you
* appreciate every moment with friends and family
* sleeping is always the best damn thing ever
* never do things at the eleventh hour (if u hate ur bed then please, do so XD)
* never be overwhelmed by feeling of satisfaction
* spend money wisely! money doesnt drop from the sky..

6 people to tag;
* Renge
* Tenze
* 均均
* Rachel
* Elaine
* Maxea